What is the Meaning of Life?
Who am I?
What is this miracle of Being Alive?
We are alive.
Usually we are too busy doing this and doing that to notice.
And then one day, one hour, one minute, one breath . . . and we are no longer alive. What did it all mean?
Most people don’t cultivate this awareness, this understanding, this connection with the depth of what is means to be alive.
So be it.
This book is for those who hunger for that connection.
And it takes time and attention away from the usual places we put our time and attention.
Yesterday’s meditation, the two arms and our two legs and our taking in of reflected light and sound coming in each moment… this gives us a solid basis for living in the world. We have somewhere to go besides the usual “lost in thought” that is most of life for most people.
And tragically, most of the “thought,” which is really “words/ talking in our head,” and not real thinking ( the perception of differences and a curiosity to explore new combinations and perspectives of differences), most of words in the head non-thinking is a bummer. Worry. Resentment. Complaining. Victim stuff. Muddled mingling of too many plans at once.
And the greatest slavery of all:
THE GREATEST SLAVERY OF HUMANITY IS WORRYING/ CARING/ OBSESSING ABOUT WHETHER OTHERS APPROVE OF US AND OUR ACTIONS.
FEAR OF DISAPPROVAL IS THE OTHER SIDE.
So, that’s the usual lot: not such a great way to live.
And you, wonderful reader, have a whole batch of ways out of that mess:
Following your breathing
Sensing your arms and legs
Writing deep heart goals
Talking/ listening without interruption or commenting
Touching/ experimenting one hand to another
Holding hands with gratitudes, or present awareness
This is a lot.
And this can give you a basis, just those, for a life at a much, much deeper and more wonderful level than is usually lived.
And today, it’s meditation as a dive into the mystery, the deepest mystery perhaps, the mystery of WHO AM I?
The caveat on this is that the answer HAS be BEYOND THINKING/ BEING WORDS.
Even good/ real thinking.
Who we are is deeper than words, deeper than thought.
Some people go to nature to experience this, or listen to classical music, or get in “the flow” as they sail or play golf or basketball.
And what would “the flow” be like, AS EXPERIENCE, if it were just BEING.
This is the wonder and glory of life.
We are human beings.
We are human doings.
Without the experience of our being we are truly incomplete.
And how do we go about this?
All the ways listed above and….
A meditation toward the wonder of life that goes like this:
WHO AM I meditation
Sit somewhere, more or less upright
(Later walking, laying down, swimming, all sorts of other avenues are welcome to you)
Follow your breathing for awhile.
Notice your pelvis for awhile.
Smile as you breathe out.
Sense your arms and legs as the foundation.
And then, LET GO
Let go of knowing what to do next
Let go of trying to solve any problems
Thinking will come, usually, and let go of believing it.
Let go of believing you have to continue the thinking, have to solve the puzzle it wants to gnaw at.
Let go of believing any emotions you are feeling.
Sense the emotions as bodily sensations, but get beneath that to the I AM ALIVE FEELING OF BEING IN A BODY, BREATHING RIGHT NOW
Let one moment become the next
LET GO OF HOLDING ON TO ANY MOMENTS
EXPERIENCE YOUR EXPERIENCE RIGHT NOW, AS THE NOW KEEPS MOVING, AND DON’T DEMAND THAT YOU HAVE THE WORDS TO DESCRIBE IT.
EXPERIENCE YOUR EXPERIENCE.
More could probably be said about this.
And . . . let go of trying to “do it right”
Always there is the breath to return to.
Always there are your arms and legs to provide the foundation.
Add your spine too if you’d like.
The body is the carrier of who we really are.
THE TRICK IS TO DISCOVER WHAT’S LEFT WHEN WE DON’T TIE OUR EXPERIENCE BACK TO WORDS.
What is reality?
This can be wonderfully peaceful.
This can be annoying: if I don’t have words to explain to others my great understandings, what good is this. (Slavery and wanting outer approval, right?)
This can be transformative.
And just do it for awhile.
A couple of 10, 20, 30 minute meditations a day.
Maybe a little longer if you are gung-ho.
But not too much.
There is too much life to be lived, and in gratitude and connection and real listening and sensing your arms and legs, life will be very full.
And tomorrow, we’ll expand our ongoing life even more.
For now, though, enjoy your day.